I've said it before, the way I eat reflects my spiritual state. When I am healthy and eating well, I am balanced and peaceful. When I eat crap and freak out about food, I am distorted and lost. Every time. This is just how it is.
Wanna guess how I've been eating? Gorging myself on pizza and doughnuts and ice cream. "Forgetting" to eat all day long.
My body finally freaked out on me tonight. I swear it started screaming "ENOUGH!"
I am physically ill. I've been swinging back and forth. I'm filled to the brim with processed, toxic crap. Yuck.
I made Joe drive us straight to Sunflower market for some fresh, organic veggies and fruits, coconut water, and some dead sea salts to soak in. We all need to detox. We need to let go of the anxiety that is keeping us trapped in a SAD diet prison. Oh mercy.
The road to healing is full of upheaval. I've been reminded by a friend that shame has no place in freedom. This just IS what our lives are right now. There is no point in feeling guilty about it.
Who knows what is going to enter our tummies tomorrow, but TONIGHT we are drinking fresh juices and eating organic cherries. In this one moment I am remembering that everything is connected. Food is a giant part of our experience with God and with each other. As I drink my carrot apple juice I am thankful that God is cleansing us. He is washing away the stain of sorrow. He is drenching us in what is pure and whole.
And it's enough.
God's love, his radiant grace, is enough.